“My friend, I feel that I’m locked up in a room
and the keys are lost.
I’m disconnected from life.”
“I’m living in the dark. Dark life. I don’t want nothing from them except to let me go, let me go, they have no right to steal my life away.”
This week I saw two films about detention and deportation to Afghanistan and I spoke to the audience about my experience. I have never spoken in front of people like that before apart from my English exam at College. But I wanted people to know what it really means for human beings in detention and how they feel. I have seen a lot of people in this world who don’t care about others’ feelings and I want to tell other people what it’s like for people in detention centres.
caged in_Flickr by_Kandyjaxx
In my speech I talked to people about detention centres but I really don’t like this word to say by my mouth. When I was in the detention centre I met one officer who told me that the UK government thinks that a detention centre is a holiday place! Can I ask any English people who want to go there for a free holiday – everything is free but you have to spend your life there, like minimum 4 years, then who will go there??? No-one!
I feel very angry inside because I read some things about detention centres. From my point of view I should call them ZOOs because the UK government thinks that we are animals! That’s what they think because they take the lives of human beings in detention centres.
And you know when I was in that place where I spoke in front of people, some people asked me ‘How do you feel watching these movies?’ I answered them that I have seen my future from now, because if the UK government sends me back it will be worse for me than for Hamedullah because later on he was lucky and some people helped him with his education and kind of other things. But if they send me who will help me?
Even everyone knows that my country is getting worse day by day. Now my country has a problem with Pakistan which is our neighbouring country. So how am I going to live in Afghanistan when the war is getting worse and I don’t have any support?
Let’s go! Flickr by_TC Morgan
The first movie was about detention centres. How did I feel about the two people talking about their life in detention centres when they have been there for 4 and 5 years? And for what???? What kind of crime did we do? We just came to this country – only that! Whatever anyone thinks about some poor countries, think what the British and USA governments did with them and now those governments don’t leave us to live alive anywhere in the world.
That movie showed me my future because if the Home Office refuses my case again then they will put me back in a detention centre and it will be for a very long time – I know because now at the moment my country has a lot of problems so Immigration will say ‘we can’t send you at the moment because your country has problems,’ and they will detain me for a very long time, so now I don’t know what to do!